There used to be times when I just ran for the sake of running. The reminisces of childhood still refresh the days when I just ran to enjoy it. Alone on a roof with no one needed to run along. It was not for any reason, goal or fear but it was an activity that made me enjoy the freshness of air, the drops of rain, spectacle of birds above in the sky. As I ran, it was one activity which didn’t have any hidden motives behind it.
With the new phases of life things changed. They haven’t changed for good but they certainly have. Every day I got up after those formative years, things I learnt at school, college, etc made me run after something. These were defined as goals in most booklets and I was told achievement of these so called ‘goals’ will help me gain that extra bit of happiness.
But as I kept running after them I never achieved the so called extra bite of happiness. If it did give something it has to be the reasons to run more. These reasons comprised of both the ‘chambers of a sand glass’ as time passed by. The emptiness of one chamber portraying reasons to ‘run from’ and the other filled chamber representing the new reasons to ‘run after’.
It never brought any satisfaction or happiness to be particular. Instead it just brought sadness and a need for struggle every moment of life. I just want to go back to those formative years where i can close my eyes or look up towards the sky and enjoy the free run without any fear of impediments making me fall. Somewhere in this cycle of events of various life phases I lost the sheer joy of running. Just long to run once again for no reason at all... Just run..
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I had a friend in Thapar who was an athlete. he used to go to the field at 12 in the night to run..
and this is what he told me...
"all my best performances have come on those lonely nights running alone with no one watching, when I was just running for the sheer joy of running..."
and I have never forgotten those lines... and your post brought back those.. :)
u know that is again the pursuit of the impossible dream...
just think about it... u want to have the things which are never meant to be.. u want the glorious past and a bright future but don't want to step up to njoy the present..
nehow.. dream on... and run :)
love u as always
"A Mayonnaise Jar and and two cups of coffee" is what is required in life :)
Lets Live a Day at a Time.
Nice post
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